rest in peace.

Posted on | September 29, 2009 | 2 Comments

friday evening we went and had dinner at our best friend alex’s parents house to celebrate his birthday. many of his closest friends were there to eat spaghetti and hang out. one of them was Brian Redman.

Brian was killed the following night in an accident.

Brian was by far the nicest person you could ever meet. a staple of the tacoma music scene, a person everyone knew and loved, and a rare individual whom i guarantee no one could say a negative word about. you just don’t meet a person like Brian more than once in your lifetime. Scot played a few shows with him and he always had a way of asking about what was going on in our lives with a genuine interest, not just that of one making small talk. you could ask anyone in the area, and i know they’d have nothing but amazing things to say about Brian regardless of how they knew him or how long they’d known him. it only took one meeting to know this guy was special. to say he will be missed is an understatement.

aw, that was cute of me.

Posted on | September 25, 2009 | 8 Comments

i must admit – before i had Harper, i had grand ideas of what it would be like to be a mom and along with those ideas came “nevers” – things i would never do or say. when i was pregnant i saw a book called “i was a really good mom before i had kids”. it made me laugh, and think. now, almost a year into it, it could be the title of my book. i’ve compiled a list of things i said i’d NEVER do:

[feed my baby formula] man, i was awful about this one. some of things regarding breastfeeding that came out of my mouth pre-Harper coming out were downright hilarious. i mean slap-your-knee funny. i actually uttered things like “i don’t care how hard it is, i will keep trying until my nipples fall off” and “babies who are formula fed are sick all the time”. yeah. i did that. you know what miss know it all? (yeah, i’m talkng to past self – i’ve told you before i’m bat doodoo crazy) it’s freaking hard. what sucked the most (besides the fact that my nipples did almost fall off, literally, and having the worst supply issues known to man) was that my determination to breast feed ended with guilt because i had really convinced myself that formula was poison. but guess what? it’s NOT! H has never ever been sick ever, and has a sane mother, not the crazy one she had for 6 weeks hunched over a breast pump crying begging the milk gods to give her more than half an ounce in 30 minutes.

[put my baby in her own room before 6 months] this one cracks me up. every time i pictured life with Harper, i pictured her in her bassinet in our room. no. just no. this lasted about 8, maybe 9 weeks and no one was getting any sleep (what was that noise? is she breathing? i better check to make sure. ::baby wakes up crying because her crazy mom has a finger by her tiny nostril checking for air::) putting Harper in her own room was the best thing for everyone. she is a championship sleeper and has been ever since. i always read about people walking the halls with their babies, rocking them to sleep for hours, stressing about crying it out, etc. this is foreign to me. don’t get me wrong, i know how lucky we are, but seriously – we kiss her goodnight, lay her in her crib and she falls asleep. that’s it. crying it out? who’s crying? not my kid.

[own brightly colored plastic baby toys] hilarious. who the hell did i think i was? at one of my showers i recieved a playmat – blues, reds, yellows, oranges, purples – and i politely said thanks while mentally finding a place in the garage for it/scanning my brain on who i could regift it to. i judged the hell out of that playmat. right down to it’s musical little stuffed lion. then when H was 2 or 3 weeks old, i busted it out. she loved it. because she’s a baby. did i really think these toy people didn’t know what they were talking about? good lord. harper could care less for the modern, more hip toys i wanted her to like and you know why? because they’re BORING. these days, it looks like a rainbow barfed in my living room. and i love it.

[let my baby watch tv] noggin rules my life. end of story.

[give my baby jarred baby food] i try to make all of Harpers food, but let’s be real. there are mornings where the coffee can’t brew fast enough and opening a container of gerber organic bananas is easier for my tired butt than mashing one up while H screams bloody murder for FUD. again, NOT poison.

i’m still standing firm on no mini-van ever (although once another kiddo is involved – i must admit i can see the convenience of a sliding door via remote control – but still, no) and no soda or frappachinos (seriously, come on people).

readers! i need your help!

Posted on | September 23, 2009 | 2 Comments

so in my attempt to redeem myself and Harper from losing that crazy local baby contest by 2 votes, i’ve entered the monster in the Gap Casting Call contest. the winners will be chosen by actual judges, but they are also having a fan favorite, chosen by voters (this means you!). you do have to sign up, but the cool part is, you can vote every 24 hours! the leaders now have a few hundred votes, so we have a tiny bit of catching up to do, but i know i can count on you guys (no pressure).

so if you’d like, click here and vote for the nugget!

p.s. i’m not delusional, i know we most likely can’t win this – but wouldn’t it be cool if we did?

feeling nostalgic.

Posted on | September 22, 2009 | 2 Comments

my first baby survey…found this on facebook.

1. Were you married at the time? yep! to the best guy ever.

2. What was your reaction when you found out you were pregnant? i seriously couldn’t believe it! i only saw one line from across the bathroom, it was scot who saw 2. one of thee happiest moments of my life.

3. How old were you? 26

4. How did you find out you were pregnant? i peed. on a stick. then another. then made scot take me to the store and buy 2 more. (there is something reeeeally exciting about seeing those 2 lines come up. i’d say i was embarrassed except i know a lot of people do the same thing).

5. Who did you tell first? stella and lulu.

6. Did you want to find out the sex? oh yes. i knew it was a girl though.

7. Due date? october 26, 2008

8. Did you deliver early or late? 5 days late.

9. Did you have morning sickness? nope. i had all day sickness. it was the worst thing ever, and the first thing i will contemplate when we decide to start trying again. i HATED the first 14 weeks.

10. What did you crave? celery (scot actually had to go to the store at 11pm one night because i HAD to have it). what really got me in trouble was the ice cream cones and vanilla breves (yes – i drank caffiene almost everyday – and look at my kid! she’s perfect!).

11. What irritated you the most? people.

12. What was your first child’s sex? girl!

13. How many pounds did you gain throughout the pregnancy? 35, all in the 2nd half. go me?

14. Did you have any complications during your pregnancy? just the harfing. but that’s normal, unfortunately.

15. Where did you give birth? tacoma general

16. How many hours were you in labor? well if don’t count the 4 weeks of being dilated, having contractions and showing up to the hospital at 4cm (aka, active labor) but still having to be induced – then just 8.

17. Who drove you to the hospital? scot.

18 . Did you take medicine to ease the pain? oh hells yeah. best.thing.ever. (again, my kid is fine!)

19 . How much did your child weigh? 7 lbs 5oz.

20 . What did you name him/her? Harper Paige

21 . How old is your first born today? almost 11 months old (sigh).

22. Who does your child look like? both of us. she has my cheeks and face shape, scots eyebrows (identical) and pretty mix of both of our eyes.

23. Did you get mad at your husband during labor? nope. he was amazing.let me out

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